“Believe that your
inner voice is the voice of your soul…and it knows and wants what’s best for
you and will lead you to your individual purpose and destiny”- Kelly
Cutrone
Kelly Cutrone, I heart you and your books honestly inspired
me. Some people come into our life and even though you know you will never meet
them, the impact they had on your life is remarkable. Kelly Cutrone is up there
with Oprah on the list of women who inspired my life through watching, reading
or viewing their ability to follow their dreams and turn their lives into a
form of inspiration to others (something I dream to do…just sayin’). I highly
recommend both of her books that I read last year, “If You Have To Cry Go
Outside: And Other Things Your Mother Never Told You” (I actually go outside
and cry on occasion to release stress from work) and “Normal Gets You
Nowhere”.
I have not written in a long time for myself. I moved to
Arizona to gain independence and learned quickly that living 100 percent alone
costs a lot of money, whether in my hometown of dolla-dolla-bills-y’all Orange
County or in borderline low-income housing apartments in Arizona. My life until
about a two months ago, has been me spending 35-40 hours at one job and coming
home to work all hours of the night 20-30 hours a week at another job. My dream
took a trip to the back burner on my electric stove in my scorpion-ville
apartment (I mean this literally… finding scorpions in ones home where I live
will mos def happen).
Long story short, my adventures in cacti-land have been
pretty uneventful until recently. Working so many hours, I was lucky to take a
nap before heading to one of my jobs most days. Occasionally I could fit in a
Sunday BBQ with my friends to regain my sanity. I decided a few months ago to
rearrange my life. I got a roommate to alleviate the stress of paying to have a
roof over my head and to help pay the summer air conditioning bill (which is
almost double in order to endure 100 plus degree weather in the heart of the Merikan
desert). I quit my second job and
decided it was time to write again. The whole main purpose of my relocation to deserts-r-us
was to disconnect from my former reality and to start a writing career…and to
follow my soul.
Today I sat down to write, I opened up my writing journal of
ideas, and this Kelly Cutrone quote I wrote down flipped its way back into my
life. I jotted it down while reading one of her books, because it spoke to me.
All while I was working both jobs and going through the motions of surviving
life in a mundane routine, my soul was calling me to follow my dream. Not a day
goes by where I am not constantly thinking, daydreaming or wishing that I was
pursuing some sort of writing career…but I want to pursue it on my terms and
writing what I want. Each day I work hard for other people to help them to
continue to pursue their dreams and I finally realized recently that its time
for me to finally put in longer hours to help me follow the voice of my soul.
My soul continuously talks to me about writing and has since I was a child.
I am pretty stoked to attempt to stay committed to following
my inner voice this year, as Ms. Cutrone inspired me and other women to do
through her writing. Last year was about
gaining independence and learning a whole slew of lessons about myself, this
year is the time to achieve the goal of writing daily, learning to self-publish
and following the path of my soul, which apparently knows what’s best for me…just
sayin’.
