Another year draws to a close and I
once again sit alone on New Years Eve, which seems to be a tragic reoccurrence
these past few years. Working in retail never allows me to thoroughly enjoy the
holidays at the level I would normally wish to (if it were up to me I would be sipping
bubbly with some friends right now…just sayin). Also the element of being
totally single makes this holiday, like Valentines Day, a day that I actually avoid
going out on, since I would be the only one among my friends kiss-less at
midnight.
My 60 year old something parents
even decided to spend the night out on this joyous day everyone celebrates. They
invited me to attend dinner at my grandparent’s retirement home, but I thought
cooking frozen chicken nuggets, drinking two beers, and watching a movie with
my dog sounded like the less depressing option for my end to 2012.
On this day people tend to reflect
on the year that just passed. People post novels about their year on Facebook
and generally talk about how this year sucked the big one and hopefully next
year will remain less tragic. I read about 20 New Years resolutions, which most
included losing 10-20 pounds that more than likely were added to people’s
waistlines during the holidays.
My year in a nutshell involved
heartbreak, stress, working, spending good times and bad times with friends,
being forced out of my childhood home, dealing with family drama that generally
remained secretly concealed from the public, the start of a blog (which
suffered due to some of these travesties on my life), and the crazy notion of
deciding to move to another state to gain independence and start living life
for myself.
Throughout my hectic emotional year
though, I learned a lot about the characteristics of my family and friends,
love, dreams, reality and most of all the importance of change. Most of all, I
learned a lot about myself and I am proud that even when I face defeat, I am able
to wake up the next day, find humor in every experience, and create strength
with in myself to eventually turn each situation into a positive lesson
learned.
My new years resolution does not
involve losing weight, I am chubby and enjoy food too much for any of that
nonsense, but it involves a cheers to change and a cheers to myself. I look
forward to my new journey that’s about to take place, I welcome all the change
that it entails, I hope to become even stronger at the end of next year, and I
openly welcome all the wisdom and insight I will gain while exploring my
dreams. I also plan to blog daily for a year straight. Happy New Year to all and to all a good night... literally I am about
to fall asleep at 8 o’clock.
P.S. What change will you embrace
next year? I hope you decide on a change that is not superficial and rather one
that includes an impact on yourself that helps inspire others.
