Styna Just Sayin'...#Change

 

The decision to move to a completely different state did not come easy. Along the way many emotions confronted my soul and tried to stop me from making this major step towards change. Fear, anger, sadness, WTF am I doing, and holy hell I’m going to be broke, topped the list of reasons why a change for my life of this magnitude made me feel uneasy. As the time to moving draws closer though, I know deep in my soul that this extreme catapult into the unknown will most definitely be worth it in the long run.

As I drove down Pacific Coast Highway today, I felt sad that the beach would no longer be a quick drive from my house. Driving down PCH in Orange County and listening to music became something that soothed my soul on a bad day throughout my 13 years of driving. I grew up hitting the beach for field trips and roasting marshmallows at bonfires on a Friday night in high school. Moving away from the ocean and my bubble for the past 29 years did not equal an easy decision.

I always wanted to write for a living and ideas for books continue to pile up inside my little brain. I never thought a year ago that I would become a cliché. Uproot myself, like most writers, to the middle of no where Phoenix, and seclude myself from the people I love, so that I finally start making my dream a reality (which with my writing I hope to inspire others to do so as well… “Dreams won’t always take you on a straight path to destiny, but they’re related to what your soul wants for you. They’ll force you to ask yourself hard questions, they’ll kick you’re a@#, and more importantly they’ll turn you on.” #KellyCutron).

The only thing I’m hoping that separates me from a total writers cliché (knock on wood), would be the killer at the end of the 27 bad scary movies I've viewed about writers that go to the woods to write a novel and wind up murdered (this would be an example of fear and uneasiness, I’m a writer, I think of all scenarios bad and good). I feel that my ideas and talent make this crazy move to the desert worth the thousands of emotions that make this decision not easy, but like the quote above I know for my soul’s sake, this pursuit of my dream will be worth attempting and it definitely won’t lack delicious ambiguity… I’m just sayin’.

P.S. What dream does your soul keep asking you to follow?